As someone who has been blogging on and off for seven years, as I have grown and entered different times in my life, my blog has too. The name What Amy Did was born in 2015 – despite it being my social media handle on almost every platform before I decided to give my blog a rebrand. In my blogging journey, my domain has been all sorts of cringe-worthy titles that looking back, make me laugh – how did I ever think that was cool? My content also developed over time. From sharing the latest Soap & Glory product, raving about disco pants, to blogging solely about beauty, throwing in some lifestyle and then eventually, becoming a fashion blogger (stay tuned for a post on that element soon.)
Last year, I began to integrate something I was incredibly passionate about – Mental Health. It’s been no secret if you follow me on social media that I’ve had my battles and I’ve always vowed to be honest and frank about them. Sharing my story inspired others, and that was the reason why I did. You may have noticed though, there has been a real lack of posts on that topic on my blog lately and the reason is, I’m no longer blogging about my mental health.
You might be thinking what? But it is a subject you’ve been openly passionate and candid about in the past, and yes, that is true. But just like all the other topics that featured on here once before and are now non-existent, it is all part of the parcel of growing up online. I still want to advocate MH but I’ve learned I can do that in other ways instead of feeling the need to spill my guts online. Although I understand that for some, writing about their experiences online, has and will continue to be their coping mechanism or a part of their recovery. I will always support that. But for me, I just don’t get anything positive from sharing this topic on my blog anymore. Over the last two years, my mental health has evolved. It has made me a stronger, more intuitive person than I was when all my symptoms began simmering to the surface. I’m educated on my condition, I know my triggers, and even though there will always be ups and downs, I’m in a much better place to tackle them now. The older I’m getting, the more I’m valuing my privacy which makes this post sound incredibly ironic. But, in the modern age, we are becoming (even if we don’t realise it) chronic oversharers – especially us millennials. I’m not saying that is a bad thing, however, on reflection I wish I’d kept a bit more to myself but hey, it’s 2018, and it is the new normal.
The next reason is slightly controversial, and I would absolutely hate anybody to take this the wrong way. The mental health community in blogging is honestly one of the most incredibly supportive out there of all the different blogging genres in my opinion. When people are having a down day, people swarm to help those in need, and it is truly admirable. For me, being a part of the community made me feel like I could be understood. On the flipside though, I couldn’t cut off from thinking about mental health. If I wasn’t tweeting about it, I was brainstorming MH related content. If I wasn’t brainstorming or writing material, I was consuming it. There was no off button, and for me, I personally found it overwhelming. I absolutely champion the people who do MH blogging full time. I think it is one of the most courageous and wonderful things you can do, particularly when there is still so much stigma sadly around mental health in general. For me, it consumed me to the point where it was unhealthy, and I know now, going forward with all the tools I have, that writing about it publically just isn’t for me anymore.
It might sound like here I am again, changing directions but I’m not. My blog is still going to be book related with a few thought pieces sprinkled in for good measure but, I felt like I needed to write this post. Ever had something that you feel you need to express in order to make yourself feel better? Well, after a few days of deliberation, this was it for me. I hope those who got comfort out of my posts before, continue to do so from other members of the community. I’d also urge any of my readers that if they need someone to talk to, then my DMs are open. Right now, I have no idea what the future holds but I know I’m ready to close this chapter of my life and move forward.
Thanks for reading as always x